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Mind flights

Mind flights

*TRIGGER WARNING: sexual assault/ trauma*

More often than not, trips show up

on our life’s porch

as one of the greatest gifts.

It’s true, sights and feelings are amazing parts of being when you are experiencing them at the moment they’re happening.

But for some people, sometimes,

their minds take flights

that they’re not even aware they’re on

until they’re already on the plane,

amongst the clouds,

feeling the turbulence.

There’s no iced cranberry juice

excuse for r and r

fluttery, bubbly anticipation

for toes in the sand,

ski slopes,

or touristy adventures.

Because these are the kind

that leave you strapped to your seat

gripping the arm rest

frightened by those sitting nearby

even if they’re a trusted friend,

sibling,

or significant other

who’s always asked for consent.

These are the kind where you wonder

why people book flights in the first place

These are the kind

where instead of landing

at a peachy destination

your minds pilot decides to drop you off

in the middle of a war zone.

You wake up gripping your sheets

your t-shirt sweaty

whispering those words

you wish you had screamed

while pushing him off of you.

Sometimes,

you’re on the right flight

but you never take off

sometimes,

you can’t even get out of the damn runway.

your seatbelt is on

your carry on is in the overhead department

but as each moment passes,

the pilot makes empty promises for departure.

you look down the aisle, eyeing the exit,

quietly planning your escape route

but the air in the aisles is so congested

that you can’t even move a limb.

your friends are sitting next to you

colored expressions nestled on their cheek

and even though you’re on the same flight

their pilots are more predictable.

even though you’re within 2 inches

it feels like you’re worlds apart.

because your pilot has taken you somewhere where your body isn’t

your pilot has taken you to a deserted island that only has one visitor.

The forgiving silver lining

about being a passenger who takes mind flights

is

once you’ve landed at a desirable destination

you’re standing on indescribable terrain.

your enjoyable trips

contrast so intensely with your war zone trips and non-trips.

Your toes sink into the sand the same time as your close ones do

the gentle wind embraces your face

you can smell the salty coastal air 

and feel the sunshine kissing your cheeks

as you take in the sight of the cascading waves crashing upon the shore.

The forgiving truth

about being someone who takes mind flights is as time goes on

you’ll reach a point where

the mind flights become less frequent.

more and more of the desirable trips fill your agenda

and eventually

one day

you’ll go back to having an agenda

that consists mainly of flights

where you land

somewhere

that allows your body to come along.

you’ll reach a point where you know

that none of your trips are going to be

a complete getaway.

But that most of them will definitely be worth booking the flight.

 

Emma Butterfield Administrator
•Portland based ecstatic dancer and yogi with a quirky sense of humor who loves the outdoors most of the time • Creative Nonfiction and Poetry• Healing backwards and forwards in time• ~My writing is something I pour my heart and energy into. Please keep this in mind and do not share without asking permission.~
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