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No, I didn’t fight back

No, I didn’t fight back

If you looked,

you wouldn’t of found

my scratch marks covering his skin

the next day

or his cold blood

looming beneath my finger nails.

No, I didn’t fight back

because I was a deer in the headlights that night

after all

he drove my shuttle bus for months

was a tree hugger who watched me break down

after the first blow

and said it wasn’t my fault

but suggested I take Krav Maga lessons

to protect myself from future potential assailants.

because he had a sweet girlfriend

who taught yoga

and owned an organic fruit and vegetable farm.

No, I didn’t fight back

because I froze instead

a small rabbit playing dead

in the tracks of a blood thirsty fox.

No, I didn’t fight back

because he was twice my size

and who knows what he would’ve done

had I challenged his masculinity

as fragile as a moon colored feather.

No, I didn’t fight back

no, I wasn’t sober

and for fucks sake,

yes I know it happened.

when glass shatters

the pieces often end up all over the floor

and my fingers have been bleeding

for months

as I’ve tried to pick them up.

thanks to him

there is blueprint recorded in my bones

that will remain until the day that I die.

no I didn’t leave right afterwards,

and no, I don’t know exactly why.

and no, that doesn’t mean I approved of it

accepted it

and I sure as hell didn’t want it.

No, I didn’t fight back

but yes, I wish I had.

No, I didn’t fight back

But yes, I am

fighting back.

In daring to love

after someone took my trust

and masqueraded

manipulation as admiration.

My lover doesn’t wear a mask,

it’s bare skin from now on.

No, I didn’t fight back,

and no,

he can’t use that against me anymore.

I may have been the rabbit then, but I refuse to play dead.

Emma Butterfield Administrator
•Portland based ecstatic dancer and yogi with a quirky sense of humor who loves the outdoors most of the time • Creative Nonfiction and Poetry• Healing backwards and forwards in time• ~My writing is something I pour my heart and energy into. Please keep this in mind and do not share without asking permission.~
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